It's... really weird, having someone nearby when he's like this. Neil's used to being alone on his bad days, riding out symptoms on his own. He hardly even goes to emergency nowadays: that would mean calling someone to take him to the hospital. Pointless.
Having someone watch and wait for his fits to subside, to even bother to touch him or wipe the sweat away, to even try to help considering the long years he's spent perfecting his facade of apathetic asshole, it's more kindness than he deserves. More kindness than he really wants. It's alien and uncomfortable and panic-inducing, and part of him would bolt out of the room if he could, but he knows Sans would catch up to him damn quick. So he just struggles through it, forces himself to breathe and then take the offered water (Sans has to hold the cup, and Neil tries not to feel like a pathetic child).
"Yeah. Everything's alright. Seriously, I just need some rest now." If he can get any... insomnia is one of the withdrawal symptoms, and he's been a night owl at the best of times.
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Date: 2016-03-24 03:45 am (UTC)Having someone watch and wait for his fits to subside, to even bother to touch him or wipe the sweat away, to even try to help considering the long years he's spent perfecting his facade of apathetic asshole, it's more kindness than he deserves. More kindness than he really wants. It's alien and uncomfortable and panic-inducing, and part of him would bolt out of the room if he could, but he knows Sans would catch up to him damn quick. So he just struggles through it, forces himself to breathe and then take the offered water (Sans has to hold the cup, and Neil tries not to feel like a pathetic child).
"Yeah. Everything's alright. Seriously, I just need some rest now." If he can get any... insomnia is one of the withdrawal symptoms, and he's been a night owl at the best of times.